Friday, May 22, 2009
A true confession of a former bulimic patient
Bulimia nervosa is an eating disorder characterized by recurrent binge eating, followed by compensatory behaviors. The most common form—practiced by more than 75% of people with bulimia nervosa—is self-induced vomiting, sometimes called purging; fasting, the use of laxatives, enemas, diuretics, and over exercising are also common.The word bulimia derives from the Latin (būlīmia) from the Greek βουλῑμια (boulīmia; ravenous hunger), a compound of βους (bous), ox + λῑμος (līmos), hunger.
Way back to my high school days, I knew I was gaining weight, of course I am in my adolescent period. I tend not to eat and starve my self for the whole day and its very frustrating coz my mom always cook all my favorite dishes that is sooo tempting and I end up very full. I am very angry that time coz I look flabby and eiwwy and at the same time I'm very disappointed.
This case of mine is related to anorexia but turned out as bulimia. I am eating but I induce to vomit every time I eat so that I take all out the foods inside of before my body absorbs it.
My mom thought that I was pregnant that time so she took me to a gynecologist and obviously its negative. I feel sick every time I don't purge myself or drink laxatives and sometimes my vomit comes out with blood. Yes, I lose weight, but I look old and unhealthy and I look like Allegra Versace sort of bone and skinned human and i look like a horse.My teeth becomes fragile, I got brittle hair and not-so-good skin.
My mom take me to a doctor and she revealed that I am a bulimic victim. So,she advise my mom to take me to a psychiatrist to check me up. There are so many injections, vitamins and I always accompanied whenever I go to the comfort room so I can't do the purging. The doctor said my stomach and a part of my tube from mouth to stomach was swollen and near rapture. I stay at the hospital for a couple of weeks and I gain weight.
My mom talked to me and cried in front of me, telling me to stop. I can lose weight without being this desperate and almost kill myself. That time I realize, I am not the only one suffering from this pain also my family and friends and love ones.
Now, I gain weight and a proud plus size woman! I am healthy and always happy.
I boost myself confidence and continue on my healthy lifestyle. I dont want to go back to those dark memories. Thanks for the people who support me and love me. But for now, Im planning to lose weight in a healthy way! Thank God that I surpasses that tragedy in my life.